Our Baby Bugg

Once again we have lost another pregnancy. We found out that we were pregnant 3 days after our anniversary. It was a great feeling! Considering that our last pregnancy was an ectopic we had to go to the High Risk OB quickly.

The picture above was taken on November 1, 1996. Yes! An intrauterine pregnancy and a "regular" gestational sac!

I started spotting a few days later and tried to ignore it. I went to the Emergency Room on Friday, November 15, 1996. They said that my hCGs were rising a bit slowly, but we had a great ultrasound and to not worry about it.

My regular appointment the following Monday said the same thing. They even pointed out that the gestational sac would be expected to be irregular for someone who had been bleeding for 10 days. It was perfect. We even saw movement of the fetal pole.

Kevin was out of town that week defending his doctoral dissertation. I tried to remain calm, but by Thursday night the bleeding had picked up and I was cramping. He got home Saturday night and we were really happy to see him.

The next day, much of the same. Kevin leaves to teach religious school. By now I have resolved that the pregnancy is lost, despite the positive news from my doctor, and the fact that we were taking progesterone supplements. I fixed lunch and then had to go to the bathroom.

It was like all hell broke lose. I sat down and blood clots that were huge and hard started coming out, about 30 seconds later Kevin came in the door. I started crying, after trying to tell him that everything was okay. We decided to call the doctor who said to go back to the Emergency Room.

We got there and my bleeding was listed as heavy, and my blood pressure was about 82/37. Considering I was still anemic from my liver rupturing, we went for the D & C.

I actually felt better when I woke up. Kevin took me home and we began our recovery in earnst.

Updated January 8, 1997

We just got the genetic results back from the D & C last week. Our baby was a girl. And she was perfectly healthy. It's just my body killing my babies.

I want to name her, Kevin doesn't. He thinks it's dwelling. I like Sabra (to rest) or Miriam (bitterness, sorrow, I wanted a child). And on with life I go....

Updated January 21, 1997

I have named our daughter. She will be Miriam Sabra Weiss.